So here we are, the start of another school year and a big shift. Little one is in last year at little school, big one is in first year at big school, both are beyond excited. I'm in the last week of Probezeit at the job (with no problems so far) so can officially relax.… Continue reading Unstuckening, unwording

Nearly two months into new job and the main reason I still don't entirely trust it is that I feel too comfortable. I feel like myself on the job, and after nine months in a job where being me was very much not appreciated, that makes me a little nervous. But I'm leaning into it.… Continue reading Less Hausfrau, more Haus

Initially underrated advantage of our new house: it's a 2-minute walk from a little independent appliance shop. This has become extremely valuable over the past few months, as four appliances in succession have broken, not counting the time I needed to replace a shelf in the fridge. I mean yes, normally one would make phone… Continue reading 3 things in a hurry, 2.7.21

Posting on a Wednesday is weird. I think in calendar weeks and midweek is just not the right time to navel gaze. But I don't want to sit at my computer on a Sunday, and I'm working on Monday, so Wednesday it is. Unless I shifted to Friday, I guess. That feels weird too. OH… Continue reading Midweek brain does run-on sentences and randomness

Been thinking a lot about different kinds of beliefs this week. Not in a remotely religious sense, just the difference between knowing something rationally, and knowing it in your bones. And the ways in which your brain and body can trip you up by holding onto unhelpful and untrue beliefs even when you "know" better.… Continue reading You gotta have faith

Tomorrow I start my new job. I have a contract so it must be true. I am still having a little difficulty knowing how I feel about it; it's very easy to see the ways in which it could suck (start-up chaos) as well as all the things that seem perfect. My natural tendency is… Continue reading The Great Unstuckening?

I have a vaccination appointment, finally. (Well, two. Both set up together.) It's been A Challenge getting one – they all disappeared within six hours of being opened to all age groups, reportedly. I kept trying and failing (having them snatched out from under me in the few seconds it took) until finally succeeding today,… Continue reading Not everything is terrible

Good thing: back to school after two weeks of holiday with very little to keep kids occupied (because plague, and rain, and friends either sick or in quarantine, and mommy flat out of ideas). Am actually pretty impressed with kids, they were very bored in a very sweet and cheerful way and completely omitted to… Continue reading Good, bad, whatever

Things are just a bit hard sometimes. Last week was fine all in all, stuff got done, life got lived in that everyday kind of way, but the weekend was a bit hard. First there was the emotional hangover from a job interview on Friday: the kind where I feel great at the time, it… Continue reading Not the *best* week