Good enough

My New Year’s Resolution is simple. In 2015, I’m giving up inadequacy. 

I’m giving up on worrying that I’m not good enough, that I don’t do enough, that I’m not brave or disciplined or energetic enough. I’m giving up on measuring myself against others. I’m giving up on giving up. This year, I’d like to remember everything I have accomplished, and have fun doing the next things, without pressure. 

Of course, that’s going to be about as hard to stick to as any other resolution. But I’m committed. I am frankly BORED of feeling inadequate, and worrying about whether I’m on track to achieve my long-term goals, and despairing over how all the other moms are so much more together than me. (I know that’s a lie, anyway, even if all I actually see are their successes.) So my challenge for 2015 is to formulate a full and specific set of goals (I’m still working on the details; hey, the next 4 days will be the first chance I’ve had in weeks to actually take a moment), devise a time management plan that supports them, and then move forward with that plan – without beating myself up when the plan doesn’t quite happen.

My one little word for the year is enough. As in, I have enough. I do enough. I am enough. 

And if I only sometimes manage to remember this, and follow the plan, and be kind to myself?

Close enough.