Having a lot of thoughts about work and ego. As in, right now it looks like I will be going back to freelancing after May, and I'm in the hugely privileged position that being jobless isn't a disaster, but it still sucks. Mostly because I don't get the ego gratification of having a cool job… Continue reading From the land of ugh: 5 things 1.4.19

Insecurity at a high last week, self-esteem at a low. No particular reason, other than a disappointing pattern release (but not only that). Almost certainly hormone-related. But knowing that everything is basically ok and I'm doing basically fine basically doesn't help, does it. Occurred to me though that the one thing I'm hardly ever insecure… Continue reading Small things: 5 things 25.3.19

Project from hell has finally finished, serving up lavish quantities of wtf right to the very end, and I can tell you that I am way beyond gatvol. My gat runneth over. (Which is a bit graphic if you understand Afrikaans and a bit opaque if you don't but fuckit, you get the idea.) The… Continue reading But the sun came out at least: 5 things 18.3.19

I've been spending a lot of time in my head (I'm not sure how that's even possible, with life being so crowded, and yet) and finding myself wishing I were writing something. Like, a book. Not that I have a specific plan for a book, although then again, I have about half a dozen plans… Continue reading On reflection: 5 things 11.3.19

It's March already. MARCH. The year is one-sixth over and today was the first time I managed to try a new recipe. (Clearly, although I am not fool enough to take on the #52recipes challenge this year, I can't quite shake the idea that I should be doing it. It lives on inside my head as… Continue reading And so it continues: 5 things 4.3.19

I'm getting pretty good at conserving my energy, if you understand that to mean assiduously employing the fuckit principle. And just putting my head down and stubbornly plodding away one step at a time on everything I can't say "fuck it" to. I hate having such a long to-do list, and I hate not being… Continue reading Ugh whatEVER: 5 things 25.2.19

Last week was full of surprises. Apparently we might be buying a house? It's not quite signed and sealed yet so I shouldn't really be making any big announcements, but ooh er. It's got masses of space, and it's a short walk from our current place, so that's all that really matters. It is nice,… Continue reading Entering the grownup zone: 5 things 18.2.19